This is dedicated to a friend of mine:

You’re so much better than me, 

Your grades, your looks, even your sugar daddies. 

You say you were bullied as a kid,

Then surely you understand the term ‘Condescending Judgement’. 

You told me your stories in confidence, 

You asked me to keep them a secret. 

Now I don’t understand how everyone knows, 

When my mouth has always been closed. 

Yes I know you won the genetics lottery,

Just remember that lottery isn’t a sustainable sorcery. 

You have so much experience in every field that concerns life, 

But that does not give you the right to indulge in mine. 

I can’t tell you this because I consider you a friend, 

But when have my friends ever been so condescending? 

I know you obsession with owning property, 

Is that why you’ve turned yourself so improperly? 

I’m a hypocrite for calling you condescending, 

Because my judgements are lesser than that of a friend.

But just because my morals don’t align with yours, 

Doesn’t mean I won’t listen to you at all.

And if I can spare a minute for your bullshit, 

Then why can’t you spare a second for my wit? 

Enjoy your free dish while you can,

Not everyone can rely on a man. 

Congratulations on your successes, 

I hope you won’t slept with more men past ten. 

And please keep boosting about the money you get,

At least I get to keep my weekends. 

You don’t schedule in time for friends,

Because you’re too busy flirting with older men.

So congratulations again on your successes my friend,

I may not be rich but as least I’m happy.


Friend to Foe

Here’s the problem:
I have this friend. We’ve known one another since the beginning of high school. We see each other everyday. To others, we are alike in many ways. Only we see the differences between us. We have a similar intellectual level, fitness level, and family background.
Why, shouldn’t this be a friendship of perfection?
I don’t think I would hate a ‘perfect’ friend. I also don’t think a ‘perfect’ friend is a bitch sometimes.
My parents dislike her more than I do although my parents opinion in anything are the least of my worries.
So why not resolve this by simply ending the friendship?
But you see, that’s where the real problem is. ALL my other friends, every single one of them I’ve known or associated with only knows the pair of us. If I split this pair, I am the bad person so I would lose all support from all my other friends, I will be rejected as this “nasty jealous selfish bitch”.
I do admit I can satisfy all those qualities when I’m angered but I don’t want to lose all the friendships I’ve formed these past few years.
I’ve done many things for this friend, I have fought my parents to keep our friendship steady. I have made sure she attended everything she and I were involved in. I’ve told her many things. More than I should, but she doesn’t return the favour. You see, that’s where it irritates me. I see that as disrespect, selfish, and disloyal.
She shows lack of sympathy for my pain (something I am used to by now) only she laughs at it. It’s a joke to her.
I once believed this similarity keeps us competitive against one another. Now I see how foolishly blinded I was. She takes advantage of people. She takes credit for work which she lacked effort in. To me, she cheats her way through and like the bitch I am, I hope one day it will bite her back.

I don’t really know what to do. I just want this year to end. I want to start over and meet new people. I need to get away from her.

Or she needs to get away from me. I’m probably the selfish jealous bitch.
Either way, this long term friendship is becoming toxic. I think it needs to end soon. Before it’s time, I will have to put up a facade and deal with this foe as a friend until the end of the year.

I hope she will never find this.


What should I do?

This isn’t my usual thing but I really need help. I have a friend whose going through a lot right now and I don’t know how to help her. She’s recently been diagnosed with depression and has moved away from home. She’s losing focus in school work and her life goals. Her recent injury has physically disabled her to write which is really bad because she can’t take notes in class. I don’t know how to help her. She say she doesn’t need help but she does. She’s crying a lot, almost emotionally unstable. Those who have been observant are concerned for her but how do you make someone happy when they’re unhappy? How do you help them? I know I’m not the right person she’s going to but I don’t know what else to do. I think I’m being a really bad friend by keeping it all to myself but I don’t want to lose her trust in me by telling someone. I just want her to be happy again. I want everyone to be happy because I enjoy other peoples happiness. When people suffer, it stresses me. They tell me and I usually give them the most cliche response you can think of. I suck at these things because I’m selfish, I don’t usually think about other peoples problems. Usually I have my own to deal with but I don’t want to be a selfish person (it may be in my nature) but I won’t allow it to define me. Maybe what I’m doing right now is selfish because I have not asked her permission to post this. I hope she doesn’t find this or if she does, know that I’ve kept it anonymous. Anonymity is quite powerful. I’m sure you know that already.
If she does feel like I’ve betrayed her, I’m sorry, I was only trying to help.
Please take care of yourself.
Love Always,
Your Friend.