Like the unforgivable night,
Like the dark thoughts running in my mind,
Like the bone chilling cold,
Like the last breath it stole,
Like the last chance to survive,
Like there is no other way to life,
Why does everything have to be this way?
Why can I not say what I want to say?
Why do I have to change to fit in?
Why do I have to fight for freedom?
Why won’t I have a chance at happiness?
Why is is so difficult to feel less worthless?
The things we desired the most,
Are those that should be locked or closed.
The small accumulation of an obsession,
Can make us deny all logical reason.
It is true we can sell our soul,
For a moment of the euphoria ghost.
We lose track of day and season,
Reality is a long reach from our emotion.
Such is that of a careless addiction,
That can spiral beyond our control.
Once we make that initial decision,
We are committed to a lifelong treason.
The bad habits we make use of doing,
Becomes our own hell and undoing.
We create our own prison cell,
When we lose control of ourselves.
We convince ourselves it can be stop at anytime,
Tomorrow tomorrow we will abide.
We become the master of deception,
Associate our weakness with confusion.
The bag of lies we tell others,
Strips away our saviours.
Slowly and slowly we begin to lose sanity,
Until we cannot stop living in fantasy.
The guilt and shame eventually fades,
We are so consumed by what we cannot change.
The key to life is dramatically simple,
So why is it so unattainable?
Sometimes I just want to be alone.