Like the unforgivable night,


Like the dark thoughts running in my mind,


Like the bone chilling cold,


Like the last breath it stole,


Like the last chance to survive,


Like there is no other way to life,


Why does everything have to be this way?


Why can I not say what I want to say?


Why do I have to change to fit in? 


Why do I have to fight for freedom? 


Why won’t I have a chance at happiness? 


Why is is so difficult to feel less worthless? 


Bad habits are hard to quit

There are many things I wish I was better at. I can’t say I haven’t tried but I also can’t say I’ve tried very hard. 

As human beings, it is in our nature to resort to the things that are easy and simple. It goes against our nature to exert effort to work for something. And usually that only happens if the rewards outweigh the work efforts. No one works for free. Even volunteers are gaining the experience or the title of selflessness. 

What inspired me to make this post is the process of checking my emails. I found that the most dangerous habit I have become accustomed to is to mark emails I have opened as “unread” to deal with it at a later stage but in this day and age, our inbox are so frequently visited by mail that the old ones are drowned in masses of junk and we tend to forget what’s not there. 

So instead of leaving the decision making for the future, decide upon it now. Because when you do things in the future it is thrown into your past which is why bad habits are hard to quit because good habits are thrown in between the time zones of the future and the past and miss the opportunity to exist in the present. 

So I will leave this post with one final note, “All good things require sacrifice” because you have to sacrifice time in the present to change your way of living. 

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Permanent Marks

Most people will disagree with me because they’ll probably think I’m being biased here. I believe permanent marks on our bodies such as tattoos or scars weaken us rather than provide strength. Not much tattoos get much thoughts put into it before the person decides to get it and those that do usually get something that they can rely on to “give them strength” but here’s the deal: Life has a funny way of showing us that the things we make permanent usually loses it’s meaning and value over time. I believe that can be strongly linked to failure in marriages in our modern society. When we know for a fact that we will have these things permanently, we become less aware of their values. That’s why I don’t like anything permanent nor do I believe in everything being permanent, we need changes to move forward, or backwards depending on these changes. Nothing is ever permanent, so before you add another mark to your body just ask yourself: “Will I want to see this in 5, 10, or 20 years time?”. If it’s meant to be, fate will manage to find a way to leave its imprint, trust me. But don’t scar yourself with something permanent you might regret because you’re in a temporary conflict in life.

Take care of yourself, be good to your body, and try live as happily as possible.

As for tattoos, come on, no one really wants to see the same image/words over and over again repeatedly for as long as they live. Try to be accepting towards changes, you may not be happy about it because (I know most people won’t admit it) but change is scary, it’s the unknown, unforeseen, and who knows what might happen? Our lives are not guided by a rule book which we edit, they are blank pages waiting for you to fill up, to write a new adventure, one that has never been written and never be wrote unless you give everything a go.
Oh no, I went off topic (again!). Sorry, I’ll shut up.